I could just be listening to Trance music and think about stuff, then end up crying like crazy. Why do i still think about these things? I care too fucking much.
You tell me to go talk to them because "they're ready to talk to me." If they're ready, then why don't they approach me? I'm tired of trying to be friends with people who don't care, people who don't want to care. I'm tired of having to be the one to step up, be the one to apologize when nothing's my fault in order to get them to say 'sorry' to me.
You told me to let things go. I am letting things go, people just happen to be going with it. Why can't that be? Why do I have to do everything? I can't be the one to do things all the time. That's not my duty, and I don't want it to be.
Things are the way they are 'cos they're meant to be. Please stop pushing me.
